Everyone warned you about the holidays.
As a new birthmother, they said, you’re going to have a hard time. Be prepared to feel sad and depressed.
And though you believed them, you had no idea it would be this hard.
While everyone around you is celebrating the best of the season, you just want to lock yourself in your room and not come out again until all of the tinsel and lights have been put away.
Seeing the faces of happy children makes you think of the one that isn’t with you.
It doesn’t matter how confident you were about your placement or how good your relationship is with your child or his adoptive parents.
This is the time when the pain of separation intensifies and the “would-haves, could-haves and should-haves” take root and make you question your adoption plan, your self-worth and even your sanity. Continue reading