I confess, as a waiting adoptive parent, I had been living in the future. This is a tale about how I found beauty, and a way to live, in the present.
On the day I realized that 2015 is half over, my heart sunk. I instantly started dreading spending another Christmas holiday season still waiting to adopt.
I turned to my husband, John, and said, “If we haven’t adopted by the holidays, we are spending Christmas at the beach”.
I didn’t allow myself to think of how much can happen in six months. How our last adoption situation began and ended so quickly that it all seems like a blur.
Instead, I went straight to wondering how we can protect ourselves from another painful holiday season. How can we pretend we aren’t hurting, while everyone around us is celebrating and playing Santa Claus?
Earlier this week we hit 21 months “live” with our agency, The Independent Adoption Center. Immediately, my thoughts turned to “only three months before we hit two years”. Continue reading →