Adoption Limbo: 3 Tips When You’re Stuck Between “Just Us” and “We’re a Family”
This guest post is by Barbara Herel, an adoptive mother and blogger.
Having a baby come into your life has been described by many a parent as a miraculous event.
The baby part, yes, babies are miraculous. The domestic adoption process, well, not so much.
There’s a real checklist of things you must do in order to adopt and I like me a good checklist.
It’s tangible. It’s action-oriented!
And darn it, it feels good to feel like you’re moving forward and in control of something for a change. (Take that, tired old eggs!)
Then the checklist ends. And so does the forward-moving momentum.
Soon the uneasy and persistent feeling of Limbo takes over.
Some people call it The Wait, but to me, Limbo describes it perfectly.
There I was stuck in between the chapters of my life – somewhere between the “Just Us” chapter and “We’re a Family” – clumsily, helplessly thumbing at that last page that just wouldn’t turn.
Grrrrrr…. All the while, holding my breath, wondering how my cliffhanger of an adoption story was going to end.
Even after connecting with Kim, my daughter’s birth mother, and we were seemingly moving forward, I still didn’t know. All I knew was that Limbo continues until it doesn’t.
There was little I could do.
Except, try to get me some unshakeable peace to get me through every next step, misstep, frustration, anxiety, and quiet excitement that came my way.
I quickly turned to my tiny toolbox of inspiration that I learned as a single gal from Jennifer Macaluso-Gilmore, teacher, diva extraordinaire of the inspirational classes called “Something Different for Women.”
I am pleased to pass them along to checklist lovers everywhere.
Fortify yourself with gratitude
Giving gratitude is one of the most feel-good, grounding practices I know.
Simply write down at least five things you’re grateful for every day, even if it’s being grateful you made it through the day.
Here are some things I wrote during Limbo – “I am grateful to be on this exciting, scary adventure—it makes life worthwhile. I am grateful to know that every step back, every obstacle opens old wounds, yet they do feel less painful.”
Giving grats kept me focused on the good stuff. I also found it to be a positive way to chronicle my thoughts and emotions during Limbo.
Do what’s in your control
And then let go of the rest. I found comfort in doing things that were in my control like keeping my promises, such as calling when I said I would call.
Or when Kim wanted a sonogram (hey, I certainly wanted her to have one, too), I decided to do what was in my control by asking her if my OBGYN could speak directly to her OBGYN.
The docs spoke, Kim got her sonogram, and happily she sent them on to me.
Keeping doing the next indicated thing
I first learned about this after reading Victoria Moran’s Creating A Charmed Life.
When life is extraordinarily overwhelming and uncertain (just like adoption!), take a deep breath and focus on the one most important thing on your list.
This will help you stay focused and calmer.
It’s easy to get overwhelmed with all the things you could be thinking about like finding a pediatrician, decorating the baby’s room, updating your will, learning baby massage techniques… whew!
There’s no sense further adding stress to your life.
Everything that needs to get done will get done in its own right time – if you keep on doing the next indicated thing.
You certainly don’t have to love the Limbo, but feel the Limbo.
Embrace the Limbo.
Respect the Limbo.
Because it only feels like it’s going to last forever.
Here’s hoping you move through your exciting, scary adventure sanely and gracefully.
Barbara Herel chronicles her (nearly five-year) open adoption in the Improv Mom blog for Adoptive Families Circle. She is also the producer of the web series Open Adoption Truth which gives voice to first families, adoptive families, and adoptees as they candidly share their open adoption stories. When not writing or interviewing, you can find Barbara in the play kitchen creating feasts with plastic food.